Well, there's not a lot of medical news or updates. Last week I had an EEG where thy hooked up about 28 different wires to my head and they monitored my brain activity while doing some different tests on me like making me hyperventilate and flashing strobe lights in my eyes and stuff like that. We haven't gotten results back yet, so we don't know how it went. I also went to a cardiologist too. My doctors think that maybe this could all be caused by me not getting enough blood to my brain because of the fainting, low blood pressure, and light headedness. So, yesterday I went back to the cardiologist and they hooked me up to a heart event monitor that I will have to wear for the next month. Hopefully we'll get some answers soon!
This last week I had the amazing opportunity to go to our stake's Girl's Camp and talk to the girls about missionary work and about how sharing your testimony can help strengthen it. That was SUCH a great experience. I was SO excited to be able to teach again and to have the opportunity to share my own testimony! It wasn't easy - as I was walking up to the stage to teach I didn't know if I would have enough strength to be able to stand up there for a half an hour to teach, but the whole time I was up there I felt so strong and I know it was because of the spirit and because that was what I was supposed to be doing at that time.
I'm so grateful that my "grandma Johnson" growing up got to come and support me!!
There's been a lot of times where I have wondered why I am home - a LOT of times - but as soon as I started preparing for that talk I knew that for some reason that's what I was supposed to do. I was supposed to be able to be home to be there to share my testimony with the girls and talk about missionary work. It really helped me feel like I had purpose again and that was one of the hardest things for me when I came home - feeling like I didn't have much purpose.
While preparing for the lesson I gave I learned SO much. A quote from Thomas S. Monson that I used that I really love is "You know the truth LIVE IT. You possess a testimony, SHARE IT. Never underestimate the far reaching influence of your testimony.” We all have testimonies - even if it is as simple as "I know God lives" we should NEVER hesitate to share because we never know how it can help others.
I gave the girls three challenges to try and help them share their testimonies in their everyday lives and I would encourage you all to try and do them too! As a yearly challenge - share your testimony in church (fast Sunday sacrament meeting!) once every year. Something to help remember that is to do it in the month that you have your birthday. For a monthly challenge - try and share your testimony some way through social media. We're all on some kind of social media at least once everyday. This could be sharing an article or church Facebook page or just posting your simple testimony on Facebook :). And for a daily challenge - put on your pone calendar, alarm, or even a sticky note on your door a reminder that says "Did I give someone the chance to feel the light of my testimony today?". I KNOW that when we share our testimonies it not only helps strengthen others but it helps us to build our testimony and our faith.
I am SO grateful for the gospel in my life and I know that without it I wouldn't be able to get through this really difficult time. There are times that I feel really discouraged or down but anytime that I turn to my scriptures or General Conference talks or prayer I always feel better. I know this church is true and I know that Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ are always there for us and will help us through anything - through difficult medical situations or even just inviting our neighbor to church.
Thank you all for your love and support and endless prayers and thoughts. I love you all!!
Avec amour,
Courtney
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